Today is the fifth anniversary of our little boy, Ciaran, who I carried for almost 4 months before his heart stopped beating. I can’t believe it has been that long already. The night we went into the hospital and delivered his tiny unbreathing body, there was an ending, and a beginning, and everything in between. It is fitting then, on this day, that I honor him by sharing with you a little book I wrote. It’s called " A Unicorn's Mother " and it is written for my sweet boy, b ut also for all of the incredible women who also know the brutal truth of miscarriage; who have had to say goodbye to a child unborn and unseen, whom you desperately loved and wanted. And it’s a special nod to all the remarkable mama’s who wrote to me, who shared their own stories of their own little unicorn’s when I felt all alone. No one wants to say “Welcome to the club,” but here we are. I love you all.
"There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed." ~ Ernest Hemingway
Krissy, I read your August article on MOPs and so appreciated the first paragraphs... I have only one child - she leaves home for university in 9 months and there's a part of me that's terrified; what will I do without my sweet daughter and very good friend? Your article reminded me that I've set aside many interests and passions to invest myself fully in being there for my daughter - although I will miss her a lot and go through a time of loss when she leaves, I'm going to hold on to your reminder that I am more than a mom, and that the loss will come with new opportunities to dust off old passions. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteRenee, thank you so much for reading, and for your comments. I can only imagine what it is like to be in your shoes. It sounds like you are an incredible mom and have a wonderful daughter. Your friendship and positive relationship will not be lost just because she is in a different place. I am certain as she grows and learns new things and spreads her wings in this world so will you! And your relationship will find new depths and grow stronger because of it. I hope you have fun exploring your own old passions and diving into new interests as you embark on this new journey! I went off to college 20 years ago, my mom being my best friend, and she still is. Your ability to look for good the things in the hard things is a beautiful way to live! Keep going :)
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